Monday, November 30, 2009

Exhausted from Sorrow

In reading about the last couple of days before Jesus went to the cross. These few words struck me.

Luke 22:45
When he rose from prayer and went back to the disciples, he found them asleep, exhausted from sorrow.

I wanted to ponder on how Jesus was feeling.
Exhaust: to drain of strength or energy, wear out, or fatigue greatly, as a person
Sorrow: The uneasiness or pain of mind which is produced by the loss of any good, real or supposed, or by disappointment in the expectation of good; grief at having suffered or occasioned evil; regret; unhappiness; sadness.

I think there are the beauties and thorns in relationships. Sometimes, people bring the best out in us and other times, they burn a whole straight through our hearts w/ their words or actions. Just from this passage, I see that Jesus was overwhelmingly hurt. It makes me sad to think about how he must of felt. I too then had to reflect on moments when I felt the most sorrow. It didn't feel good. You couldn't eat, sleep, think...or do anything. It was even hard to breathe. You just lay there, not moving and feeling a heavy burden of pain and grief. It's an overwhelming feeling.

If Jesus felt this just because his disciples were sleeping and not keeping watch with him....I can't even imagine the heartbreak he felt when he died on that cross. Study says Jesus died of a broken heart. He loved me so...and I just can't imagine hurting God anymore. I continue to reflect on what Jesus went through and it makes me grateful and desire to live my life to please him.


Tera Chau said...

Wow great thots T; luv ur flow n imagery! Honestly although the gospels floor me cuz there's just so much to chew on I actually dread reading it cuz I know what happens---I know Hes gonna suffer beyond reason n b killed, so to me reading the gospels is like going thru the death of a luved one over n over again... thank God for Easter morning.

Also, I think Jesus was so sad that nite not only cuz He will suffer n b killed, but I agree with u, He knew His heart was about to b broken by His frenz... Judas wud betray Him, the apostles wud abandon Him, the disciples wud run or stay n join those cheering His death... then possibly 3 days in hell as some scholars believe where He wud endure unimaginable pain n heartache not to mention the worst of it all---separation from His Father. My heart feels heavy n sad just typing this out on my lil phone :(... Jesus, wow AMAZING.

Thx for leading my thots T, luv u.

Teena Phamster said...

thanks Tera for reflecting. it's good for our hearts....though very challenging at times. i appreciate your condensed version of all that Jesus when through...very intense.

luv u too. :D

Justin Seibel said...

Great post Tina! I felt really connected to Jesus' pain in his sadness. Your conclusion is great too and i could feel myself getting this, that knowing this is how he felt would I want to keep putting him through that? Very moving. You should do communion with that one. You'd get to some people at church for sure.

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